Day 16 – Morning 4.30.2025
I’ve had almost no sleep last night. The pain in my right leg kept me up. Even the meds which are my daily friend didn’t help. I’ve been teary since yesterday afternoon and I’ve asked God why am I having such a hard time. I did all the right things to prepare. The boots I’ve broken in during training have never failed my like they have multiple times now since I’ve been in Spain. The solitude I longed for in doing this trek solo is no longer a friend to me as I journey. With all my physical aches and pains, I haven’t been able to listen or even appreciate the scenery. I don’t have any answers except to say I think the Camino is saying it’s time for me to go. I am to come back another time. Perhaps with a family member or a friend to walk along side me. Maybe I will be healthier. Maybe I will be happier. I sure started out happy and I long for those feelings to return. I am mourning the loss of the Camino I dreamed of for so long. It is another dream in my life that has not turned out. Perhaps that is what happens when your dreams aren’t walking along the path God has in store for you.
I will take a taxi to my next city this day. I will pray this day. I bet I will cry some more. I will try and listen to the quiet and hear what God wants me to do. Maybe even learn what He wants me to learn. Regardless of what transpires, I am grateful for all the love and support I’ve received from all of you. Your messages to me through the blog, on Messenger, texts and even emails have been true blessings. In this fast landscape that I’m crossing I’ve been carrying you all with me. That is one item I’ve carried that is not a burden. Bless you all for being with me.
Blister count: 2 – both new
A little bit less traumatized toes: 2
Left foot wound: healing remarkably well. Thank you to my nurse practitioner and beloved sister Kathleen for her treatment plan!
Heart: heavy and questioning
Swollen leg: 1
Buen Camino
You are not broken. You have never been broken. You are loved, held, and cherished. This is your essence, dear one: loved, held, and cherished.
My heart aches for you as I read your blog this morning. At the risk of sounding like I’m preaching, your journey has been nothing but amazing to me. You took such risks like doing this trip alone. There are not many of us who are strong enough to even consider this. The time with yourself and God will never be forgotten and will serve you well for the rest of your life. Be proud of yourself and as you return home I’m sure your reflections will bring you peace.
Be well and thank you for sharing a part of you through your blog.
Thank you Gayle. I really appreciate you following and your comments.
What you have already accomplished is nothing short of remarkable. Your bravery to trek this journey yourself is profound. Whether you change your course or continue we all see you as an inspiration. May God hold you close and set you free of pain and feelings of helplessness. Be proud of yourself as we are proud of you! We send love, hugs and prayers. I wish I could send you chocolate, I know you’d enjoy it, even if it gave you temporary pleasure 🙂
Here’s to chocolate Karin!! I had a chocolate croissant today. It was scrumptious! Thank you for your words.
Pat you need to cut yourself some slack. You have been such an inspiration to all of us. Not only this Camino trek but you entire life. You have raised a beautiful family followed your love of golf taken care of everyone but yourself. Now is the time to take care of Pat. Be it taking a few days off continuing on or returning home you have inspired all of us more than you know. Your strength is incredible and I would have given up way before now. Know that we are all with you behind you and carrying your burdens whatever you decide to do. Love and prayers my dear cousin!!!
Bless you dear cousin! I love your encouragement. I don’t think I have a good perspective of my impact on anyone. I will contemplate this.
I know this sounds like a cliche but a good night’s sleep goes a long way! A day off, a good meal, and rest should give you a different perspective. Stay strong!
Thank you Beth. Today has been a much better day!
You are such an inspiration to all who know you. I am amazed at your determination and perseverance. I don’t know of anyone else strong enough to even consider attempting this kind of journey much less doing it alone. Whatever decision you make remember that we support and love you for the amazing woman you are.
We never know what means God uses to show us what we need to learn. Trust that he will guide you in making the right decision. Sending hugs and prayers. Love you!
Thank you Noreen. I appreciate your comments and support.
An attempt is never a failure ❤️